World Heritage City

Do you see any similarities?

You've gotta click to enlarge and read. He's awesome.

Had some Coconut Shake Special before going back home

That all for now! xo.

Summary

Assalamualaikum :)

Hey y'all! Yes, I know, I've been away for months. I've been busy with life and everything else. There's so (too) much going on lately that I wished we had 48 hours a day. It's not that I'm very busy, I'm just... finding things for me to occupy myself with. In other words, I need a distraction.

From now on, I'll be posting photos since I'm too lazy to write, sometimes. And the fact that I have a camera now :D *grins*

Oh, and here's some news from me:

1. I'm single now. Yes, it's like, "OMG WHYYYY?!" but it's reality so like 'what the hell' ok. I'm moving on now... Frankly, it's hard because I'm used to talking to him so it felt (fells) incomplete. Hm, but, what do to? I have to get used to it and move on, eventually. I'm strong. Kan? *muka tak confident*
2. I'm starting to get closer to my parents, as they're the only family I have. (I do have relatives and grandparents, what I'm saying is that I don't have any siblings. Get it? No?) I used to distant myself form my parents, and that was when I was 13/14. It was horrible. Even I can't understand why did I even do that, to my own parents. I admit it, that I was so lost in myself last time that I kept hurting the people who were close to me. Anyway, back to the point. So, I'm respect my parents more nowadays and help them in anything and almost everything without complaining. I want to be a better daughter, InsyaAllah.
3. I'm opening up to my classmates. I hang out with them and just, be talkative. I always smile and all cheer-y (if that makes sense...) and talk to everyone (almost. hey, you can't expect everyone to like you, you don't even like everyone k.) So, I'm adjusting myself with my current 'environment'. Gah whatever, I suck at this.
4. I'm sooooo into Scouts right now! I participated in the Scouts' Marching team for Sport's Day :) Training was a whole lot fun! We get to enjoy and goof around and get to know everyone. Also, I'll be joining Jamboree :D 'They' (idk who they are but they have something to do with Persatuan Pengakap Malaysia or Kementrian) requested for ONE girl participant from chosen schools, aaaand our Scouts' teacher sent me. (In which she was desperate to look for someone cause everyone was like denying it. Padahal dapat markah antarabangsa untuk koku ok. And awesome experiences too, since you'll be meeting other Scouts from all over the world!) OK. I'M SUPER EXCITED.
5. We (4 Dedikasi) will be having a farewell an appreciation party for our very special exchange student, Natasha Losso, from Venice, Italy! It has been a year since she's in Malaysia, and she has been our classmate for 6 months now. She'll be going back to her beloved home on the 5th July, but she'll be busy from 29th June onward. Therefore, we'll be holding a (mini) bbq party for her on the 24th June :) Guess what? Ras and I are the main organizer. Lemme tell you, DAMN it's difficult to plan an event! (especially when you've gotta keep the budget low...) We're having difficulties with budget and everything else but let's pray that everything will work out. Amin! It was amazing to have her as a friend and classmate. I could see the perspective of a tourist about Malaysia.
6. Currently holding myself back from texting, calling, IM-ing, PM-ing, Tweet-ing, DM-ing, Skype-ing or anything that can connect me to him. Yes. Wish me luck. Ha ha. *gelak tak ikhlas*

Alright, that was a long one. Heehee.

There's more to come!

The End.

That was one of our memories that I’ll never forget. The Past.

We’ve been through a lot together but somehow, we just can’t be best friends anymore. I doubt that we can even be friends now that we’ve had a rough conversation last time.

The truth is, I’m terribly sorry. I want us to stop because I feel that you need a better friend. You were mad at me because I treated you badly. I’m so sorry. That’s why I need you to find a good friend who can be there for you all the time, who has no problem with picking up her phone or calling you at anytime, who has no problem with transportation or parental problems so that she could that you out anywhere, and who is a good listener. I really hope that you will find a good friend.

In this case, I’m at fault and I understand if you hate me. I just can’t stand it anymore. I can’t be your shadow forever. I can’t be a puppy that follows its master’s command. I just can’t live like that anymore. You wondered why I did that. It’s because you’re so vulnerable on the inside and I can’t afford myself to hurt you. But I did, that one time. Maybe so many times before that you almost blow up. You forgave me and you said that it’s a one-time thing but I can’t convince myself that I’ll never do that again. It’s either I’m too naïve or that I’m just plain stupid country girl. My guess is that I'm stupid.

I know that you’re mad because to you, “everybody left” and I believe that I’m one of the people that had left you. I know that maybe, you’re talking bad about me and how stupid of me to leave you with such a weak reason like that, but I understand that it hurts a lot for you. And I forgive you if you’ve talk bad about me to other people or to no one in particular. I forgive you.

I deleted our last argument messages and saved the one that you said “Thank you, Miso” because I want to remember the good things about you and forget all the bad things you’ve said to me. I already forgive you the moment you said the hurtful things to me because you were my best friend and there’s no use to be mad at such simple mistakes like that because everybody makes mistakes. I’m no exception.

Honestly, I felt guilty after everything has ended between us. It’s like a whole new beginning. I’ve been crying for the last 5 days until the day it ended. I have no tears left to cry. Your post about my bad attitude has moved me and I cried because I’ve been so stupid to treat you like that and that I’ve changed so suddenly. That’s why I had to let you go. I’ve change and it’s hard to be the person who I used to be because I can’t remember who she was. Who was she?

I think I’ve changed for the better but it seems like the statement was wrong. I’ve failed to be the person who treats her parents and best friends well, the person who studies hard, the person who tries new things and the person who is open minded and optimistic.

There’s an article I read in CLEO magazine and I scanned it because it helps me to move on. The post that you wrote on your blog was the thing that reminds me of why I should let you go.

Whenever I read the post that you wrote, it still gives me heartache, but I decided to ignore it and move on because it's my fault that it happened.

I’m not good enough. I’ll never be good enough.

(Click to enlarge and zoom to read)

Ps/ Like you said, “this year is different” damn it’s true. We’re growing up. People come and go and it’s a process of life. I hope that your relationship with him with stay until forever. I’ll always pray for your happiness and success. Take care.

Assalamualaikum.

A Judgemental Error

Assalamualaikum :)

First of all, yes, I haven't blog for a long time and it feels awkward to write .My exam results are quite disappointing, even though that was the first exam, I would like to put it that way. It was hard, because I didn't study harder. So yeah, I am at fault of my own failure.

Anyway, I'm starting to make friends with people I promised myself that I won't. Well, there was a few circumstances of why I can't be friends with them. One of the reason of why i can't befriend them is that they have hurt the person that I care the most and the person who don't deserve such hatred.

But in the end, they were not the person that I though they are. In the end, I have to work with them in a same group. In the end, they take care of my friends who are not in the same class with me this year. In the end, the longer we try to know each other, we ended up vanishing all our opinions judgement of the other latter and we become friends, almost.

Well, I still can't accept some of the people that I use(d) to have hate on, so my way of 'accepting' them is, forgetting them, like I've never met them or heard of their names or even the way they looked at me.

I would like to care less about those people who only know to throw hatred and not to love.

Treat everyone with politeness even those who are rude to you. NOT because they are not nice but because you are nice.

Thank you.

Story Telling: Mind Set

Assalamualaikum

My Biology/class teacher told us a story;

There's this old lady who is always feeling tired and so, she went to see the doctor. She tells the doctor what her problem is and the doctor recommended her a multi-vitamin. "Take one pill a day, in the morning" The doctor said. So the lady went home and the next morning, she takes the pill. She is feeling so energetic the whole day and she can do any job without feeling tired. She decided to go to see the doctor to give him a word of gratitude. She went to take her jacket before going out and when she inserts her hand into the jacket's pocket, she found the vitamin that she is supposed to take. So what she took earlier was a candy that was in her pocket for all this time. 

Do you get it?

No?




Geez ==

Okay, so the moral of the story is, your mind set. If you set your mind that you are tired and all you want to do is lay down, not even wanting to move a muscle, then you'll become a lazy ass. BUT, If you set your mind that you want to finish your homework in time, then that's what you will do. It has been proved scientifically.

So what's important is your mind set. In Islam, we call it niat.

Niat kerana Allah

Quick Update #2

Assalamualaikum

Proof that I ate my medicines

So, as you see above are my gastric ulcer medicines. I can easily swallow the pill and the liquid, but the taste is quite horrible ._. Anyway, I only came to school twice this week, that is on Tuesday and Wednesday. The pain is too much for me to take that I can barely stand up :( So bed was my bed friend :3

I have tons of homework to do. In fact, I should be doing it now but, well, you know, I'm a lazy ass. Hee hee. (Chunky is sooo gonna be mad at me when he reads this ._. ) *types quickly*

March Test will starts on the 5th. and I AM CERTAINLY NOT READY.

I've been busy with PuisiDra as I am the poem writer (which I snatched from the internet and kinda modify it a bit) and I'm the one who's gonna read it as well. Macam vain je kan baca poem sendiri? Tahu. Okay, so our director, Ras, picked 'Respiration' as the title and we kinda have an interesting plot. Kinda. Since we have Natasha, an exchange student from France, we're gonna make her speak Malay >) puahaha.

Also, I've done writing my 500-1000 words essay entitled "10 Things That I Will Do For Malaysia If I Become A Celebrity". My essay contains of 1 217 words... O_O But like, whatever, I'll just sent it haha. I still need to do an interview (a directed essay) which I'm going to write about an 'interview' with Yunalis Zaraai ;)

Oh, and I made myself a planner too :) It didn't turns out the way I wanted it to be... But I think that it will do, for now. I'm gonna remake it during holiday hehe :3

(click photo to enlarge)

I pasted a Super Junior sticker in the heart shape :)
Wanted to put Siwon's sticker instead, but he's shirtless
(with his muscular chocolate abs and all... 8D ) so I didn't :B

Hihi :3

Aaaand, that's Heechul, choking a cat plushie ._.

The 'EVENTS' section :)

Hm... What else?

Oh, I already have enough money for Super Show 4! YAYYYYY! ZHOUMIMI! 8^D And I'm gonna make a banner for him :^) and and I'm gonna make a Shupeo Junieo bracelet for me and Qmar!

I even have extra money to buy gifts for someone. Hee hee. Apa sengih sengih? :P

Hm, okaylah. That's all for now :) I'm gonna do my homework now :< Byebye :<

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ps/ All the best for March Test! This is just the beginning! :D

Quick Update: And Then It Hits Me

On your right: my face applied with makeup

I am so fake.

Sorry

Of clear sky and sea water

Assalamualaikum

An Escapade

My family and I went to Port Dickson for a 2d1n camp with my relatives last weekend. There's nothing much, really. We arrived quite late on the Saturday (it was almost 9pm) and I was starving once we were there. Fortunately, one of my relative went to the Pasar Malam so mama dialed them up to order food for me. Mama said I looked like a fugitive (Like, whuuuut?). Hm.

The breeze was strong that night, so I played kite (while waiting for the grilled chickeeennn) that my cousin found, since they arrived a lot earlier and they were so bored. There was an alien feeling I felt when the kite flew high in the night sky. I felt excited and... free. I felt freedom. For the first time in 2012, I actually get a taste of freedom ...That's kinda weird though.

Let it burn

The photo of the fire was not edited at all, I took it by using mama's phone. Kinda cool though. After we ate the grilled chicken (I ate two drumsticks :P ) we went for a walk around the Pasar Malam and the shops there. I bought myself some stuffs ;)

I was wearing a hibiscus patterned swimsuit :}

We went swimming the next morning (for the first time I didn't swallow the sea water!). I think I got myself some tan :/ Oh well. We spend the whole afternoon by taking a nap before we packed and went home.

I'm sorry I can't write a better story than this. The thing is, I haven't touch any of my homeworks at all! My desk is a mess with stuff that doesn't belong there. So first thing first, is... taking a bath, clean my room and only then I can do my homeworks peacefully *in yoga position*

Alrigthy mates! See y'all soon! ;)

Recover

Assalamualaikum

Gotta force those tablet medicines down Chindai's throat

Alhamdulillah, Allah heard my doa :)

I just got back from the vet in Cheras. There were many people -ehem- and furry friends and the system is so slow! >_> Seriously. (I would love to complain but then, macam apa je so baik senyap)

Nevermind, as long as we got the medicines for Chindai.

While waiting for our number to be called, Chindai was shivering (idek), maybe because it is such a coward with all the other cats pets around. So I knelt down and patted it. (I'm so romantic I know ;) ) <-- eiiii tengok dah vain pulak dahhh. Salah siapa ni? *pokes Chunky*

Alright, that's all. Byebye :*

ps/ dah tak ada modal, nak buat macam mana.
pps/ famous dah Chindai asyik masuk blog je ==
ppps/ tak apalah Chomay asyik masuk Facebook je kan.


Sorry ._.

Furry fella

Assalamualaikum

Chindai is kinda sick, it is always sick, I love Chindai a lot and the fact that it is my very first cat who has stayed with me for almost 5 memorable years makes me think of how long could it survive... It makes me sad to think that, sometimes I cried while patting it on the head, hearing it purrs and snuggle up next to me when I'm watching tv- I know I'm gonna miss Chindai a lot when the time comes.

I don't want the time to come.

I want Chindai to stay young forever, possibly won't can't get sick at all. I want to give Chindai various size of boxes for it to dive it and fit itself in that very box. (Seriously, Chindai can't fit into a shoe box but it just force itself and in the end it looks like a bun puahahaha) I want to feed Chindai some more boiled fish and give it treats, play hide and seek with it and snap photos of/with Chindai. You have no idea how cute Chindai is when it hides under a pillow but its butt is sticking out! LOL.

*sigh*

No lah, Chindai is not dead. I just can feel the time coming because it has scabies all around its body and a big one on its right leg. I just don't understand why my parents won't take Chindai to the vet.

I just don't understand why.

Chindai-ah, you can survive. You will survive. You will live for many long years and you will live by my side forever. Please. You will be healthy and healthier. I haven't bought you clothes and I haven't take you for a stroll in the park (since you're a cowardy cat). Please, Chindai, live long. I love you.

I can't believe I actually wrote this.

Writing away (apparently, I'm bored)

Assalamualaikum

My hands are still aching. Alah sikit je, saje nak mengada :P

So, I woke up quite late that others (my relatives) today, in which not that late compared to other kids who is still lazying around in bed (I would LOVE to do that) but I'm at my hometown right now and the people here wake up early in the morning...

Alright.

Anyway, after breakfast (I ate cute-tiny-square biscuits dipped into teh tarik since I have ulcers D: ) I slumped myself on the couch in front of the tv, changing channels because nothing caught my eyes. *annoyed* I helped Mamatok after that, I swept the whole living room (which is the largest area of the house, the second is the kitchen) and my hands ached when I gripped on the broom. (Talk about self pity) Nampak sangat tak rajin kemas rumah. Or maybe sebab selama ni asyik guna vacuum je :3 Okay, I'm the one to blame.

Signing off now, I'll update you with a selca of today's event via Facebook :)

Byebye :*

ps/ Going back to Bangi this evening.

pps/ ULCERS ARE KILLING ME!!!

Appreaciate

I miss her a lot

"What’s the use of having people around you when all you can do is build walls around yourself and refuse to let anyone in? It’s not the number of people around you that defines the existence of meaningful relationships. It’s not the number of so-called friends or so-called acquaintances either. It’s how you feel about them, how you treat them and how you fight to keep them close. It’s who you keep and who you push away. It’s who you hate, who you like and who you love. Because at the end of the day, when the battle seems to be lost and you have no choice but to give a bitter surrender, these same people who you swore to treasure with all your heart… they’ll be the ones to pull you back up, pat your back and say “It’s not over unless you say it’s over”.

And when they’re there, beside you, holding your hand and pushing you to sanity, it’ll never be over. You’ll never say it’s over."

-To Love (a fiction)

This moves me

Assalamualaikum

timeless

Assalamualaikum

Alright, so here I am, lazying around in front of the laptop, scrolling my tumblr dashboard and reblogging whatever that caught my eyes.

Homeworks pun tak siap lagi. Berangan betul.

I don't really have anything to say but I think I should update you, lovely friends, with life which is less interesting with no major occasions going on aaaaaaaaaaaaand I am so uninspired right now.

Hm.

I think I'm gonna make a song cover, maybe it's Yuna-Terukir di Bintang or Taylor Swift-Safe and Sound, (I've been replaying those two songs for over 643754935743634987093842 times so yeah) but, we'll see.

...I should go and do my homeworks now or else I'll die. I really can't withstand the cold and scary and hunted stare from the teachers ._. (just by imagining it makes me shivers)

Byebye loves :*

ps/ responds from my previous post;

"Love isn't finding a perfect person. It's seeing an imperfect person perfectly. So everyone who knows you and loves you would say you're already perfect, Miso ya. Because you are, to us. So, don't worry" -Byeol Byeol

"I think kan all the other girls pandang you sebab you're very pretty :3 Kalau I tak kenal you pun I rasa I pandang you and I'll be all like "oh why can't I be pretty like that" I selalu kot pandang girls yang cantik fikir camtu. So have faith okay? :) " -Dania (I need to give you a nickname!)